going back to clayton. >.<~ no broadband for 4 days. -cries. i'm definately coming back to sean's place on thursday night. i can't stand not goin online. gotten obsessed with a new game, tantra online. sounds sexual doesn't it? haha.... another new chinese 3d online game. very nice. i'm doomed to be playing online games again this year. hehe~

gotta go now. take care everyone~

just came back from watching constantine. very entertaining and cool kinda movie. not only that, i thoroughly enjoyed the music from the movie. haha~ downloaded 2 songs already.

a perfect circle - passive & celldweller - frozen.

speaking of downloading songs, using bearshare now. it's not as bad as what ethan said it would be.

on a totally unrelated note, saw the trailer for the ring 2. spooked me out quite bad. i admit it; i'm deathly afraid of things that go bump in the night. but i'm so intrigued by them that i can't stop watching horror movies then scaring myself silly for weeks to come. -shrugs. everyone has their weakness.

i screw up my relationships quite bad. i kinda see a emerging pattern of the way i fcuked up. why can't i stop myself before it's too late? -sighs. very very stressed out. wanna sleep but i don't want to fall asleep in fear of waking up and realizing that everything is lost.

btw, beckie where are you? i miss you very very much. when are you ever goin to online on msn? i seriously need someone to talk to now and you're the person who knows all the shit i have been through. get your %$^%@^ broadband ASAP!!!! haha...

my baby has a flair at pissing of other's parents. and when i say that, i don't mean it as a compliment.

official uni life is starting soon and i'm getting nervous. i quite like my timetable albeit for the 2 days of school finishing at 7.30pm but other than that everything is just going well. touch wood. hehe... one thing i'm not looking forward to is going back to clayton to stay. well, just right now i guess cuz i still don't have broadband connection. but a lot of my friends are staying within 5 mins walk so it wouldn't be so bad, i hope.

i did something i really regret although in the world of online games, what i did is perfectly normal. lied about my personal background, place of birth, nationality and all. the only thing i didn't lied about was my name, sex and age. -sheepish grin. but in online games, almost half of the people there are not who they say they are. i mean, it's all harmless fun. i just didn't expect to treasure him as a friend so much. i'm wondering how can i come clean without losing him as a friend. or whether i should even come clean or not. -sighs.

orientation yesterday. joined comic and anime club, hong kong club and cantonese christian fellowship. don't ask me why i joined the latter. i think mostly cuz it was free and everyone else joined. -shrugs.

feel like joining something more sports orientated. soccer? qis is in it. might consider it. hehe...

our new place is as hot as hell and i mean it literally. it's so hot and the lights those mini sports light type. >< that's why i'm goin to stay over at sean's as often as possible. his place is like heaven; broadband, food, air con, lovely comfy bed and in the city. aaahhh...

you know how most people can't resist what they can't have? weeeeeeeeell..................

am i the only one who isn't goin to the orientation?? scratch that, i think i have a fairly good idea who else aren't goin but it sure does feel like i'm the only one. i mean, those are that bunch of my friends who never attend anything school-related, school included. so i now have promised myself to attend the orientation on the 24th. it's about time i got more involved in school activities. yeah rite...

a bit worried that i'm goin to bore myself senseless when i moved into my new house. there's no broadband connection yet, alan's parents are still there and most importantly, it's not the city. how am i goin to prevent myself from killing myself just to have something to do?

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sorry for constantly losing my temper,
i don't mean to do it this much.
after every fight and arguments,
you buy me so much gifts and such.
it makes me feel so guilty,
for causing you pain and all.

sorry for running away,
ignorance isn't always bliss, i know.
i promise you now to stay,
forever and ever, i say.

sorry for saying those things,
that feels like dagger to your heart,
i'm not the most sensitive of sorts,
but this i promise you,
think before i speak,
is to be practice often by me.

i love you very much.

thomas is over playing ps2 with my baby. me bored bored bored.

wondering if i wanna go to the orientation tomorrow. maybe not... i still need to go to the bank and i still have some shopping left to do. might go on the 24th though.

you know how you always want what you can't have? well, i'm starting to miss home a lot all of a sudden. even though i find my mom such a nag at times, i miss her and dad a lot now. i kinda wanna be back home. but then, when i'm back home, i miss melbourne so so much. guess it's true what i learn in economics; humans have unlimited wants. -sighs. but nevertheless, i'm very please to be back here.

anyway, might be goin to ikea soon to get stuff for my new room. can't wait to decorate!! ^^

been back in melb for almost a week already.

things are almost the same. moved almost all my stuffs into my new house at monash green. it's a nice cozy place. 15 minutes walking distance to school.

law seems daunting. i'm a bit worried that i will go crazy before my degree ends. i think i have to sit in a court hearing during march/april for my assignment. - -" not a very good news to me. but it should be fun. the only person i knew who is taking law with me is bryan but i did meet some new friends. can't wait for school to start albeit being a wee bit nervous. first year, here i come!

bumped into balqis, div and azleena the other day. it was so great to see them again. missed them a lot when i was back home. promise to meet up one day. ^^

chrys, hope you really can come to melb! specifically monash. hehe... not that i don't want you to go to the better uni i.e melb uni, i just want you to stay in clayton which is nearer to me! -grins.
btw, when told that you might be coming to melb, my baby was like;
"oh god, you two are goin to be so bloody noisy and won't stop talking."

oh well, let's hope that comes true. ^^

still staying at sean's house for the time being. should be officially moving out on the 22nd. i think i will miss being in the city. and i will miss the girl who's staying in sean's house now. she has gotta be the neatest person i know. when i came back from kk, she had helped me clean up and rearranged neatly all my belongings in sean's room and the boxes in the living room. not only that, she places my shoes neatly on the floor whenever i come back. she makes me feel so untidy. but then that's what i am. hehe...

finally gotten myself a 3G phone. it's the LG U8138. $10.50 a month. very affordable. my baby got himself the motorola one, no idea what model it is. it's kinda like our little welcome home gift for ourselves. ^^v speaking of gift, thanks to eric for helping me get the ipod shuffle.

i have a bloody mouth ulcer that really really hurts. >.< hope it heals soon. i'm missing out on all my favourite food. which reminds me, it's lunch time!! bye all!

happy chinese new year 2005!!

finally... one of my most favourite holidays is here. time for ang pows galore!! and a direct english translation chinese new year wish to everyone out there, hope every year got fish!*

*say it in chinese then you will get it

and as michelle says, dragon horse sperm god!*

leaving on the 13th. can't wait for that too. ^^v

can't seem to go online these days. >.<

2 more days to chinese new year! hopefully my financial status can be upgraded after chinese new year. a bit on the poor side now.

i bought almost everything that i need to bring back to melbourne. the only problem now is fitting a ps2, a slow cooker, 2 pair of shoes and other knick knacks into a box that is too small to begin with. what the heck? this is the 2nd time i'm goin to melbourne and yet i have so much crap to bring back. -sighs.

sean offered to sell his stuff to us. that seems like a good deal but how are we goin to move it? the number of boxes we have in his house now is ridiculous. whoever would have thought the mere act of moving houses can be so stressful and troublesome??

since i don't think i will be able/won't bother trying to online these few days, here's an early birthday wish to my dear friend.

happy birthday chrystella!! ^^

bored. why is time passing by so slowly? i want it to be chinese new year for 2 very good reasons.

1) i'm dead broke now. open houses, here i come!! muahaha...
2) i'm leaving for melb on the 5th day of chinese new year!!!

my $%^$#^% internet connection has sunk to a new low since yesterday. it disconnects at will every 10 minutes and when a call comes in, it fcuking disconnects again. apparently being slow is not enough for it to irk me. and since i'm leaving in less than 2 weeks, i don't feel like getting a bloody filter to stop it form disconnecting. just like what i told alan, i can't wait to go back to melb and use broadband that's fast, unlimited and doesn't bloody disconnect. screw dail-up!

need to go shopping for birthday present for a certain good friend of mine. you're gonna be 20 this year!! hehe...

anyway, watched white chicks and blade:trinity yesterday. the former was hilarious while the latter was so-so. ironically, both movies had the same kind of dog in it, a poodle like kinda breed of dog which is really cute. please excuse my incompetent knowledge on breeds of dog though.

bored and i am in no mood to play my ps2 when my baby is not here. doesn't feel the same without him. although i might just play my zz gundam one day. it's the best! i just adore chopping robot body parts off with huge ass swords and firing lasers at them too. haha... sounds sickening of me, no?

speaking of ps2 game, can square enix puhleeeeease come out with FF12 soon? not to mention, FF7:advent children too. i'm dying in anticipation here. i want my cloud! -grins.

14 more days, no?

seriously did not expect you to crumble under stress and the whole distance thing before i do. must say that i felt reassured. made me think twice about you, about everything. and i mean that in a nice way.


you're entitled to your opinion
but it's really my decision
i can't turn back, i'm on a mission
if you care don't you dare blur my vision
let me be all that i can be
don't smother me with negativity
whatever's out there waiting for me
i'm going to faced it willingly
-joss stone-