am i the only one who isn't goin to the orientation?? scratch that, i think i have a fairly good idea who else aren't goin but it sure does feel like i'm the only one. i mean, those are that bunch of my friends who never attend anything school-related, school included. so i now have promised myself to attend the orientation on the 24th. it's about time i got more involved in school activities. yeah rite...

a bit worried that i'm goin to bore myself senseless when i moved into my new house. there's no broadband connection yet, alan's parents are still there and most importantly, it's not the city. how am i goin to prevent myself from killing myself just to have something to do?

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sorry for constantly losing my temper,
i don't mean to do it this much.
after every fight and arguments,
you buy me so much gifts and such.
it makes me feel so guilty,
for causing you pain and all.

sorry for running away,
ignorance isn't always bliss, i know.
i promise you now to stay,
forever and ever, i say.

sorry for saying those things,
that feels like dagger to your heart,
i'm not the most sensitive of sorts,
but this i promise you,
think before i speak,
is to be practice often by me.

i love you very much.