i can't seem to let go off things. i hold onto all memories dearly and stubbornly refuse to forget them. forgive and forget, that phrase does not exist in my dictionary. forgive, i might but forget, i never.

it can be a good thing but in the long run, i guess it could be unwise of me to do so. with memories that brings smile to my face, i hope to cherish them forever. with past hurt and pain, i wish to push them away from my mind, never remembering about them. and that is why i have a problem.

revenge might be sweet but dwelling on it will screw you up bad.

not forgetting little things like my dislike for saying goodbye because i can't let go. i never liked goodbyes. there is an air of finality about them. i like having something to look forward too.

i'm don't like leaving a country when i'm there on vacation, i don't like saying goodbye to my friends when we graduate and i don't like selling my crossgate account just because i don't wanna play anymore.

i don't like all of them because i know the story ends there and then and there's no more room for a sequel.

i can't let all these things go. i like having them nearby to be able to glance at them, to know that they are still there even if they were things as trivial as a picture or price tag.

maybe that explains why i have so much rubbish at home. 0.o

all these just because i can't let go, can't bear to cast away inanimate things and thoughts but perfectly capable of moving on from relationships as if a wave has just wash it all away.

weird minds work in weird ways.