been distracted lately. not in the mood to blog these days. been neglecting everything and everyone.

went for movies(taxi and the grudge) on the weekend and shopping today with william hoping that it will help lift my mood. but it hasn't been very helpful. i'm still down in the pits. i feel numb, i don't know what to feel anymore. the past few days has draining me emotionally and physically. i can even feel myself coming down with a sore throat and knowing my luck, i'm probably goin to have a full blown fever-cough-flu. then again it might be a good thing. i can sleep all day and not worry about anything. just let getting well take its natural course.

i never felt so numb in my whole entire life.

19 years is not a long time but it has been significantly long enough to let me see almost every side of human nature; the bad, the good and the ugly. i can't escape from this life of mine. i just can pray that i have learn something from all that i have been through to keep me safer this time around.