beckie left tonight. -sobs. one less person to talk to here when i'm down. i'm goin to miss her. even though i'm goin to see her next month when i get back. i guess i just want someone who i know i can depend on here where i can see them and talk to them.

was chatting with jien last night. my god, the things she can come up with never cease to amaze me. she totally brighten up my day(night?). we were talking about long distance relationship and about the fact that i was warned not to date a hongkie. don't really know why but hongkie guys don't really have a good reputation when it comes to relationships. guess there's where i went wrong. but it's not as bad as they say. i mean, no one is perfect.

i don't know why i'm being so trusting. it sounds so true yet so false at the same time. but because i love you, i guess i'm giving you the benefit of the doubt. i guess this is what they called trust. i seriously hope that if it's false, you will repent. if it's true, then i wish you all the best. you know i will be by your side forever. it was never about me. it has and will always be about whether you give us a chance or not.