| Forever Young
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Nikki
//Law student@Monash
//Chocoholic
//Sleepoholic
//Tends to dig own graves
//Adores Wiwi
//Misses home
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| Don't Listen To The Radio |
30 Seconds to Mars
Angels and Airwaves
Blink 182
Coldplay
Dandy Warhols
Deftones
Eskimo Joe
Green Day
Our Lady Peace
Switchfoot
The Juliana Theory
The Used
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| Thursday, September 30 |
stayed up all night yesterday. went to hungry jacks for breakfast. still not use to calling hungry jacks hungry jacks when it's called burger king back home. went to the arcade at chinatown after that. by then i was dying. while watching terry and ka hay play, i fell asleep on my baby's shoulder. ^^ as they were attempting to finish the game, i had one blissful hour of shut eye there. my baby was like "first time i see someone sleeping in the arcade". -grins. another first for me.
on the way to nel's house, i have to cross this park and i just realized that two very adorable possums live there. at first we thought that they were cats or rabbits but on closer inspection, we realized that they were possums. so cute~ ^^
# posted by kiki @ 9:21 PM
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| Wednesday, September 29 |
celebrated mid-autumn festival last night with my baby and his bunch of friends. went to shark fin house for dinner. the food was delicious. yum~ they were also celebrating their one year friendship. i was the odd one out there being the only girl and only knowing them for 9 months. the 10 of them, minus one who is on holiday, seriously has some history together.
i love u
my baby just typed that he loves me. awwww... so sweet. ok, you guys can stop puking. -laughs.
sleeping over at tom's again. only slept at 9am today. bler~ my sleeping patern is seriously messed up.
# posted by kiki @ 9:34 PM
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pms-ing? or is it depression? same thing. both cause me to be moody, to act like a bitch, to wanna cry any moment, to wanna snap at anyone and bring me a lot of pain, physically and mentally. i hate being a girl this time of the month. i feel like crying now. i can't help it. i want my mommy!
# posted by kiki @ 2:57 AM
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| Tuesday, September 28 |
if... bloody if that make or break me. if i knew all this was going to happen then i would have done things differently. but i can't change the past so i just have to live with it.
if i knew, i would have went to tom's house last friday.
if i knew, i would have finalized the trip to brisbane.
if i knew, i would have press F12 on your keyboard.
if i knew, i wouldn't have knocked.
if i knew, i would have woken up and listen in next to you.
if i knew, i would have left and spare me from this sadness.
if.... all the "if" whirling in my head, mocking me. when will all this finally end?
# posted by kiki @ 8:27 PM
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just got back from st kilda beach. went there to "bou lap" which literally transalates to burning the candles. it's a mid-autumn festival tradition from hong kong. must be cuz i rarely see it done in malaysia and winnie who's from macau said that she has never done it before too. so basically you buy a shitload of candles and get an empty mooncake tin. bring along lots of flammable things etc lighter, gel/mousse spray and oil. light the candles and let the wax gather at the bottom of the mooncake tin, add above-mentioned flammable things and viola, you have you'r own bonfire. we lit 2 mooncake tins and it was nice. fire had a calming effect on me. especially since we were at the beach-side at midnight. so soothing... but it got a bit scary when this girl threw in a lighter. the guys got a bit freaked out that it might explode. so half of them left to get food. = =" the rest of us stayed and 2 guy friends of mine who should remained anonymous due to privacy reasons, peed into the still lit mooncake tin. the resulting flame was, in my opinion, marvelous but to sane person, it was scary. it looked like it was flying out of the tin. laughed our hearts out. it was definately a sight to remember.
a funny thing happened on the tram ride to the beach. there were like 15 of us on the tram and ka hey brought this mini speaker along blaring techno music. so he and his friend decided to start dancing on the aisle of the train. the other guy was reluctant at first but when the other passangers got off, he really started letting it out. it was like he was clubbing there and then. after a while, he sat back down and that's when an announcement came over the intercom.
tram driver: *chuckles* i really enjoyed that.
we couldn't stop laughing. it was hilarious. the guy stared blushing and was blaming us for forcing him to dance. however, he overcome his shyness and did an encore for the tram driver. as a sign of gratitude, the tram driver wished him "good night and keep dancing!" when we got off. haha...
tired but happy now. haven't had so much fun for a long time. had been really really down this 2 days. tonight provide a distraction for me. i felt so peaceful for the past few hours. however, now that i'm back here, the sadness has set in again. it's overwhelming me. i need an outlet. anything. anyone.
is anybody there?
# posted by kiki @ 3:14 AM
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| Monday, September 27 |
i'm not happy.
# posted by kiki @ 9:36 PM
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| Saturday, September 25 |
get your own fcuking life. you're the most thick-skinned person i have ever seen. i wish i could damn you to eternal hell. my hatred for you is so immense that i'm very sure that it's beyond my control. bitch. get out of my life. go fcuk around with others.
# posted by kiki @ 9:46 PM
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finally able to blog after being stumped by my own dear blog for days. i couldn't type anything into the posting field! asked 2 computer whizs(keipin and eric) about it and one said it was the blog system's problem and one said he couldn't diagnosed the problem without being here in person. very helpful of you two! hmpfff... so i asked my dear mommy, beckie, who promptly solved my woe. her solution? download another browser. so now yours truly is using mozilla firefox. never heard of it but it's definately on par with IE. people out there should consider giving it a try. ^^ anyway, love ya dearie!!! thanks!!
talked to karem just now. he was commenting that he's still the only guy who walks around the hostel in his boxer. = =" glad that he realizes it himself. anyway, he told me that kaitlyn went back to singapore with my id. i wonder if she will put it to good use there. = ="
me: can you stop chatting now? the alert sound is getting annoying.
william: not my fault. the person keeps messaging me.
me: chasing girls now ay?
william: it's a guy.
me: chasing guys now then?
william: no. breaking up with him.
= =" this is what happened when in the world of online games, guys use girl characters and pretend to be innocent 17 year old kawaii girls. apparently my baby has a changed of heart and wanted to stop the charade cuz the guy is getting a bit too mushy and was offering to give him the montly card to continue playing. my baby then started to feel bad lying to that gullible 17 year old guy. -sighs. what is this world coming to? don't news about pervertic 80 year old guys pretending to be 17 year old girls teach them anything?
haven't been down for dinner for a long time. feel bad wasting money but for the first time, i'm enjoying my meals. ^^v
my dad loves emailing me. he doesn't say everything that he wants to say on the phone and he never asks my mom what i says. so he emails me asking the same thing. that's why i love me daddy. ever so blur. guess this is his way of showing that the loves me. hehe...
# posted by kiki @ 6:04 PM
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| Thursday, September 23 |
my baby's birthday today. gave him a surprise when he woke up. stuck a candle on a choc muffin and left it on his laptop together with his present. ^^ he was all groggy when he woke up and was like "what's that?" too bad we couldn't light the candle. don't wanna risk the fire dectector thingy ringing.
been enjoying the holiday to the fullest. eat, sleep, play crossgate, eat more, sleep more and go shopping. aaahhh... this is what i call life. -grins.
my throat is starting to feel dry. i hope i'm not coming down with any illness. >.<
# posted by kiki @ 4:35 PM
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| Tuesday, September 21 |
was supposed to go out today but i only woke up at 3pm. darn it. but at least i felt really rested. yaaawns...
the weather was warm today. is spring finally arriving? can't wait! i have been freezing my ass off the past 3 months. hardly can remember how it feels to be warm. although beckie has been warning me to keep my mouth shut when i'm out in case some huge ass flies decides to park in my mouth. apparently that's a common incident in spring according to her friend. not planning to find out if it's true so yours truly is goin to keep my trap shut. ^.<
# posted by kiki @ 10:51 PM
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| Monday, September 20 |
it's about life, it's about death.
it's about making decisions, it's about regrets.
it's all about yourself.
# posted by kiki @ 2:50 AM
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| Sunday, September 19 |
been at nel's house since yesterday night. imagine 6 laptops in one house, all of us playing crossgate. only slept at 7am. woke up around 2pm. now i feel so burned out. went back an hour ago to take a shower and now i'm back here. have a feeling that i'll be sleeping over again tonight.
chocolate ball is snuggling up to me again. that dog loves me so. -grins unbashedly. i think that's cuz i'm the only one in the house who doesn't scold him or hit him. poor doggie... heard him wail and squeal in pain just now thanks to nel beating him with a slipper. should report him to the animal cruelty prevention thingy asscociation.
mom called just now... said she bought the vcd i wanted and she will be sending it to me tomorrow. ^^ mom's always the best. miss her so much~ can't wait to go back and be spoilt by her again.
good luck to beckie who's sitting for her trials tomorrow. hope that you will do well!
bloody hungry now. only had a big mac just now for breakfast-lunch-dinner. are they gonna cook something for me to eat? can't believe that they are not showing any signs of hunger.
most probably goin shopping tomorrow. yeah!! that's only if i don't only go to sleep at 7am in the morning. =.= have been only sleeping when the sun comes out these past 2 days. gotta start taking care of my complexion. hehe... i know i'm vain and i'm not ashamed to admit it.
met some nice people through playing crossgate. used to think that everyone is only looking out for themselves, which is very true but in fact, there are helpful people out there. the night before, i was asking my friend in the game for help and this guy suddenly came up and asked what i wanted to do. told him i wanted to up my level and he immediately called up two of his friends to accompany me. mind you, i'm only level 59 while he's level 80 over and the place where i up my level, he can't earn that much experience points. not to mention that it was 5am in the morning. his reason for helping me? we belong to the same clan so we should help each other out. now if only there were more people like that.
# posted by kiki @ 10:02 PM
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| Saturday, September 18 |
watched alien vs predator. definately lived up to my expectations of blood, goo and slime spurting all over the place.
went out for supper. china bar was full thus bought kfc to terry's place. his house is such a pig sty. seriously, he's your typical male who doesn't know how to clean up after himself. hardly could find a place to walk let alone sit. = =" so we all sat on his bed, talked, played crossgate and finally gave up and left for home around 5am.
speaking of which, those drunkards around chinatown after midnight are seriously creepy. and sometimes a tad bit aggressive. even those who are sober gives me goosebumps.
as you can see, it's 6.26am now. haven't slept the whole night. still alert and awake surprisingly. although a bit tired mentally but physically i feel just fine. something wrong with me. no?
anyway, it's nice to hear the birds chirping outside my window and seeing ray of sunlight slowing seeping in through the blinds. -sighs. so calming...
# posted by kiki @ 6:56 AM
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| Thursday, September 16 |
bored bored bored...
my baby's sitting for his geo paper now. wish him best of luck.
i knew it was too good to be true...
cause i'm the only one who understands me...
# posted by kiki @ 3:27 PM
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| Wednesday, September 15 |
the guy who has gotten involved in so many over-18 activities is finally of legal age!! pin pin, now that you're 18, please try to act like in public ok? no more screaming "FBI! FREEZE!!!" on the street in front of god knows how many people when you see ka hay and terry ok?? haha...
# posted by kiki @ 9:20 PM
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| Monday, September 13 |
my poor baby's sick!! touching him is like touching the heater, figuratively speaking only of course. got some panadol from keipin (thx!!) and he seems a wee bit better now. considering the fact that he's now right next to me now playing crossgate. = =" sheesh... guys and their inability to take care of themselves. -rolls eyes.
alan seriously has some funny shit on his computer. he was showing me and keipin this video clip of some japanese dudes playing table-tennis matrix-style. you have to see it to believe it. it's bloody hilarious.
# posted by kiki @ 1:54 AM
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| Sunday, September 12 |
i have chem on monday, comp sci on tuesday and economics on wednesday and have i finished studying any of it? nope!! let's see what have i been doin... hmmm... watched around the world in 80 days and 8 miles, finished watching the cantonese serial journey to the west, watched the last episode of the china version of yi tian tu lung ji and watched 1 1/2 episodes of this taiwanese serial the outsider. me and serials... can't get enough of them. and beckie has this new cantonese serials that seems really tempting. contempleting of borrowing it from her. although i really think i should only ask her after my exams are over.
these days, what i have for dinner at the hostel seriously cannot be passed off as food. the asian chef used to be grouchy but actually cooked nice food. too bad he's now not only grouchy, he doesn't cook nice food anymore. thus went to chinatown for some real food with my baby's bunch of friends. winnie seemed a tad bit amazed that there were 14 people altogether and wanted to take a picture. = =
alan wants my help in chem tomorrow. -sighs. i wished i could help him. i haven't even gotten halfway through the first study guide.
so now i need you to tell me the truth,
you know that i would do that for you...
called mommy just now. she said jason's mom called and asked if i wanna go uk to study. erm... what am i doin here in melbourne, australia if i wanted to go to uk? but thanks for her concern anyway. she has always been real nice to me. she used to make those really scrumptious chocolate mousse cake and never fails to give me some. yum~ getting hungry thinking about it.
well, off to sleep now. getting a wee bit late. need to wake up early tomorrow(today actually) to digest all those aldehydes, covalent bonding and periodic table crap into my brain. tataz..
# posted by kiki @ 2:26 AM
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| Friday, September 10 |
everyone's goin on about goin home. everyday i hear beckie and wyn exclaiming "xx days and i'm goin home!!" am i the only one who's not counting down to the day i go back? i mean, i do miss my mom and dad. in fact, i miss my mom like crazy. being the only child, i have develop a strong bond with my mom. not only is she my mom, she's my best friend. we shop together and gossip about others. ^^ sure miss her like hell. and i miss my friends too. especially dino and chrystella. i can talk with them for hours and hours without any awkward silence between us. but for some reason, i'm not that keen on goin back. is it cuz i have my baby here? i don't know... or maybe cuz i don't want to part with the new friends i have here. i hate saying goodbye, there's a sense of finality about it that i just don't like. in a blink of an eye, it's goin to be november and i will be force to do just that. i don't like this kind of feeling. -sobs.
# posted by kiki @ 1:39 PM
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| Thursday, September 9 |
yeah~ no more maths!! finally got the damn thing over with. i have a long weekend before my next exam on monday. time sure flies by when you're busy. not surprisingly, maths was pure torture. i diligently did the whole past year papers' study guide and guess what? not one similar question came out. = =" and i was thisclose to falling asleep during the first one hour. absolutely detest sitting for exams in the afternoon right after i have my lunch.
gonna relax a bit before i start on my chem. don't wanna disappoint my myself again when i get the results.
# posted by kiki @ 6:20 PM
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click to see a cute but stupid rabbit that clings to your cursor... friend sent it to me...
went to nelson's house just now. they (nelson,tom隞� and magician) cooked dinner for me and will. ^^ so nice of them to invite us over. haven't had home-cooked meal in such a long time. and they had this cute and very hyper puppy that is just so full of energy. they named it chocolate ball but in cantonese. so adorable. kept running around and snuggling up to me. makes me miss my dogs back home.
# posted by kiki @ 1:53 AM
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| Wednesday, September 8 |
d-day tomorrow. or technically today. aaaarggghhh... ok, calm down... just think, one more week and it's the holidays!! that's enough to make me happy. ^^ but i'm worried. -whines. i'm still crappy in maths and comp sci is a killer. there's so many comp sci study guides that i'm starting to think that greenpeace should come and sue the bloody IT department for murdering so many poor innocent trees for printing those useless stuff. yeesh...
in conjunction with the exams, here's some food for thought.
why bother with studying then? hmmm... makes you think doesn't it? -grins.
# posted by kiki @ 1:16 AM
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| Tuesday, September 7 |
made my mistakes, let you down and i can't, i can't hold on for too long ran my whole life in the ground and i can't, i can't get up when you're gone
# posted by kiki @ 1:52 AM
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| Monday, September 6 |
gonna start studying like hell from today onwards. after next wednesday, i will be able to relax. for only 2 weeks but i'm not complaining. i can't wait for the holidays. i really need a break.
my dear sharon is awfully forgetful. she left her bag twice in class today, rushing out when class ends. she even forgot to log out of her account during comp sci. = =" helped her logged out and took her bag out only to be met by her laughing sheepishly.
ate too much just now. steamboat dinner again. now i'm so stuffed that i don't wanna move.
gotta get some studying done now. ciao...
# posted by kiki @ 9:01 PM
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| Sunday, September 5 |
went to the library with my baby to study today. so proud of myself. ^^ so i rewarded myself with ice cream for dinner. yum~ haven't had ice cream for 2 whole months. come to think of it, i haven't drank any fizzy drinks for 2 months too. i hope at the end of all this self-deprivation, i will be thinner. gambateh! -grins.
not sure if i wanna go to school tomorrow. maybe i might go... i don't exactly have a stellar attendance record. don't wanna risk seeing that lady from pastoral care.
went to nunur's room to give her back her blankie. stopped to chat with her. miss hanging out with her a lot. after i got back with my baby, i haven't been seeing much of her and anisha. but now, anisha busy with sam and nur's always at ali's apartment. i'm happy that they both found someone nice to be with. nevertheless, a part of me misses the times when we three were always together in nur's room, gossiping and never getting any work done when we should be studying. -sighs.
i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight
# posted by kiki @ 7:22 PM
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chatted with mommy dearest just now. she told me that my dad won the 2nd prize in a golf competition organized by the chinese chamber of commerce. knowing how "well" my dad has been playing these past months, i asked my mom if he won by luck or by skill. her answer?
"aiya... your dad go there and swing around a bit also can win la. it's organized by the chinese chamber of commerce lo, not some golf club. and you know your dad la... not like you don't know his skill."
= ="
exams this week... aaarrgghhh!!! only thing i have started revising is maths. been doin the past year papers this past week. -pats myself on the back.
i spilled those beef powder thingy you can find in a instant noodles onto my baby's laptop just now. whoooopssss~ he was pissed of at me, can't blame him. sorry!!!!! love you lots~ >3<
# posted by kiki @ 1:33 AM
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| Wednesday, September 1 |
i saw blink 182 live!!!!!!! travis!!!!!!!! he's ever so cool, my idol!!! the concert was really really great but the crowd was a bit lousy. some middle-aged people were just standing still doin nothing. it's a concert for god's sake. jump around!! me and div were super hyper, screaming and jumping like we were high on air. tom was being his usual sarcastic and stupid self, coming up with phrases like "we want women" and "you mean little fuckers" when refering to travis breaking his leg when they were here in march/april. halfway through, the lights were dimmed and mark asked everyone to take out their mobile phones. instantly you could see the whole place lit up with blue, orange, green light. aaaahhhh... bought the official tour tshirt. wore it to school today, so did ken. -grins.
watched the butterfly effect. really intruiging and thought-provoking. teaches us to sacrifice yourself for the good of others. would anyone have done what evan did?
sleepy... zZzZz... dream of travis...
# posted by kiki @ 11:45 PM
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