| Forever Young
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Nikki
//Law student@Monash
//Chocoholic
//Sleepoholic
//Tends to dig own graves
//Adores Wiwi
//Misses home
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| Don't Listen To The Radio |
30 Seconds to Mars
Angels and Airwaves
Blink 182
Coldplay
Dandy Warhols
Deftones
Eskimo Joe
Green Day
Our Lady Peace
Switchfoot
The Juliana Theory
The Used
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| Monday, August 30 |
finally attempting to get some studying done since there's a maths test tmr. but noooo, some hongkie dude has to ruin my studying plans by standing out in the corridor singing some crappy love song. there's this thing called karaoke in this world you know?
my baby is still at sean's place. bored outta my mind. and i have no key to my room cuz i gave it to him since i took his. his crazy ass friend, alvin (yes, i'm naming names cuz i really do think that he's nuts) refused to let them leave because he wants them to practice their eng oral to perfection. insane control freak... i'm thinking of dropping by there later, since karem is goin to azzan's which is at the same place. we'll see...
regardless of warnings, the future doesn't scare me at all
# posted by kiki @ 7:28 PM
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i'm pissed of at the world today. maybe it's the exam stress or maybe it's just me being me. i feel like snapping at anyone who talks to me. everything and everyone just seems to get on my nerve.
today while daydreaming in class, it occured to me that every time you make a choice, you lose out on something else. i know it's blatantly obvious but i have never really thought of it as a serious matter. just like what i learnt in econs, there's an opportunity cost to everything that you do. everyone try to choose what's best for them, what they assume is what they want in life. but sometimes people have a hard time differentiating what they want and what they need. in the process they might choose the wrong path to take, make the wrong decisions. but sometimes making the wrong choices are what make us the person that we are today. that's why i'm proud to say, yes, i have made mistakes and i'm not ashame of it. i have learnt more from failing than from succeeding.
my priorities are seriously screwed up. i want to go shopping, i want to play crossgate all day, i want to skip all my line 1, i want to watch movies and canto serials all night. but in reality, exams in less than 2 weeks and i haven't started revising anything. i worried and that's all i'm doin, worrying, but not taking any actions.
# posted by kiki @ 4:19 PM
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| Sunday, August 29 |
sorry for not wishing you earlier my dear friend who still refuse to teach me hakka. -sticks out tongue. maths test and econs assignment on tuesday and i haven't started a single thing. -sighs. no mood to start studying yet. went to safeway just now and bought some useless stuff again. and only safeway sells the diet lipton ice tea that i wanna drink. can't seem to find it anywhere else. my baby and keipin then wants to go for supper at chinatown so i have to tag along with them. saw my baby's bunch of friends there (nel, ka hey etc etc). had a loooong supper with them. you know how it is when guys get together and start talking about sports and online games? -sighs. but at least it was about crossgate so i wasn't left out. then when they wanted to go safeway, my baby followed them again because they haven't finish talking. -rolls eyes. and i thought girls talk too much. time to zzz... nunur's leaving me to walk to school alone again tomorrow or technically today since it's 12.35am now. -sobs. nite nite everyone~
# posted by kiki @ 12:35 PM
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| Saturday, August 28 |
i can't imagine why some people like to make empty promises when they know very well that they won't keep them. really irresponsible of those people. leading poor wyn on then saying they won't go. mean people. but you will always still have us. -huggles. though you almost made me and nur cried too.
all alone now. my baby has gone out with his friends and i'm bored. so quiet without him. and it's a bit unnerving to stay in his room when he now has a roommate. although said roomie is still fast asleep like a pig and has no idea that i'm here right now.
winnie's arriving today. haven't seen that girl in ages. and now she has a shanghainese boyfriend who's also coming with her. i hope he doesn't start speaking mandarin with those shanghainese accent. i cannot and will not stand it.
# posted by kiki @ 2:46 PM
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| Friday, August 27 |
pms-ing like never before. i can't seem to control my temper these days. and my poor baby is the unsuspecting victim all the time. sorry my dear! will make it up to you when i return to normal.
next week is goin to be a bloody long week. maths a test, econs assignments and eng essay. i'm so stressed out already. why can't they just leave us alone before the exams?
i want a guinea pig. told john to mate his female guinea pig with a male so i can have the offsprings. but he refuses to look for a male guinea pig so no hanky panky will be goin on. in other words, no cute guinea pig for me then.
wonder if wyn managed to sell all her tickets for tonight...
my baby has a new roommate. some hongkie dude who refered to ahmed as a "guai lo" aka a white man. excuse me?? he's an egytian. which part of him reminds you of a white man? but he seems nicer and less neurotic when compared with the previous roommate from china whose name is "huang di" (king).
winnie's arriving tomorrow. which reminds me, i need to get my blanket back from nur tonight. haven't seen her much these days. where are you my dearie?? miss walking to school with you.
getting hungry. the piece of toast i ate for lunch is not helping. but dinner has been crappy again. and it just hit me that i go for steamboat dinner once a week. sheesh... what a waste of money. but then again, it's all you can eat and it's scrumptious! yummm...
sorry beckie! didn't mean to scare you. but did you hear about the one where the ghost crawl out of the blanket?? whoooops... my bad. -grins evilly. don't worry okie? you will have company from tomorrow onwards rite? no more sleeping alone. long post today. i have the whole of line 9 to wait for william to finish his classes and he has to finish up his english oral with his friends before we can go back. should be using this time to study but i'm just too lazy. and nelson was supposed to be here waiting for san-san. can't seem to see him though. note: the one wear the ghost crawled out of the blanket is in referance to the horror movie Ju-On where there is a scene showing the girl in bed, freaked out of her mind, when she suddenly notices a bump appearing near her feet and she lift the blankie up to see the scary looking as shit lady who promptly pulled her under her blankie and they disappeared to la-la land.
# posted by kiki @ 3:34 PM
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| Wednesday, August 25 |
the drops of rain they fall all over this awkward silence makes me crazy the glow inside burns light upon him i'll try to kiss you if you let me (this can't be the end)
tidal waves they rip right through me tears from eyes worn cold and sad pick me up now, i need you so bad
down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down it gets me so down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down it gets me so
your vows of silence fall all over the look in your eyes makes me crazy i feel the darkness break upon him i'll take you over if you let me (you did this)
tidal waves they rip right through me tears from eyes worn cold and sad pick me up now, i need you so bad
down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down it gets me so down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down it gets me so
# posted by kiki @ 4:31 PM
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| Tuesday, August 24 |
watched twins effect 2 just now. a bloody crappy movie!! it's a sad excuse for a movie. the plot was bad, the dialogue was terrible, the acting was worse.
my friend from back home is apparently diagnosed with dengue fever and was admitted into the hospital. i hope he gets better soon! but why are news like this never first-hand information? i heard this news from my hinching in brisbane who heard it from chrys in kk who heard it from the poor fellow's aunt in kl where he is studying.
something is wrong with my dear chrys. she's been coming up with very very lame jokes lately that defy human expectations. btw, if you're reading this, call me or sms me! miss ya lots!
# posted by kiki @ 9:36 PM
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| Monday, August 23 |
got back my economic test paper. 17/20... which was surprising since i felt that i did really badly. so i asked ms hare how on earth did i get such a decent mark. her reply?
"yours wasn't really great but when i marked the others, they were so bad that they helped pushed your mark up."
=_=
same case for eric's paper too. i didn't know whether to laugh or cry. -sighs. gotta start revising my economic before it's too late. cases like these don't happen often, can't rely on others to help me make a decent grade.
hungry now... ate an apple for lunch and now my stomach is growling for more food. trying to lose weight by eating apples for lunch. hope it works.
poor beckie is sick... get well soon k?
got tricked by karem after school today. he was holding this humongous physics book and he asked me to read from a page. then he told me to place my finger there to see it more clearly. stupidly i did and he slammed the book close. ouch!!!! you're mean, you know that?? don't know why in the world would i ever thought of doin something so naive. >.<
# posted by kiki @ 3:44 PM
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| Sunday, August 22 |
went shopping with beckie today. bought more things than i needed. as usual. but who cares? as long as i'm happy that's all i care. ladidums~ this is what i call retail therapy! anyway, more shopping next week! winnie is coming over from tasmania so me and beckie gotta bring her around. and shopping is our number 1 priority!! i have been a good girl, only went shopping twice since i came back from kk. so it's time to pamper and spoil myself again. -grins.
exams in 2 1/2 weeks!! aarrgghhh.... no more time to laze around. gotta start studying tomorrow. -sighs. seriously need to do something about my maths before i see my hope for a high average score go down the drain.
# posted by kiki @ 5:33 PM
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| Friday, August 20 |
i absolutely detest comp sci!!! mrs yau had to deduct a mark for using a picture box instead of a label. so unreasonable! the example that was on the paper that she gave us plainly and clearly showed a picture box being used. not only that, the bloody instructions clearly states that you CAN follow the example if you want. -fuming. this is not about that one mark, it's about her being biased. i seriously think that during her spare time she tries to look for marks to deduct from our tests and assignments except for eric's. but then again, every teacher loves him so no point complaining there. don't ya think so too, eric? you know you're the teacher's pet! hehe...
speaking of eric, thanks for being my sweet supplier during econs!! the sugar rush can definately keep me awake. -grins.
random useless things i picked up from economic lesson:
1. COY stands for company
2. if you ever lose your student id, don't ever let any guy from my class find it. before they give it back, if you're fugly, they will ask for money or if you're pretty, then they will ask for your phone number.
3. eric is called "the master". whatever he says is assumed to be right.
4. gaya supposedly give out mint sweets to guys to kill their sperm.
5. don't ever fall asleep when eric and tobey is around you. your picture might be taken without your knowledge.
6. when you speak with economic terms such as "to decrease net foreign debt, the government will initiate a budget surplus" or "by having higher interest rate, the bank's ability to lend to the public is reduced which means liquidity decreases", you will sound clever although you have no idea what you just said
7. time seems to speed up when it's after 3pm but before that, time seems to go by at a snail pace
8. if you don't pay attention, ms hare likes to call you to repeat what she just said. but fortunately you can try to get eric to answer for you. purely depends on luck if he answers and if she permits.
# posted by kiki @ 3:39 PM
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| Thursday, August 19 |
i just realized i actually can live without tv. haven't been watching any tv for god knows how long. if i was back home right now, i would be glued to the tv, watching every single reality series and even the olympics. kinda miss watching tv though.
wyn's selling tickets for another event again. this time it's called the castle and canto pop will be played there. like what wyn said, how do you actually dance to canto pop?? i must admit that i'm kinda curious. should try asking my baby.
comp sci is seriously the most boring subject i could ever take in my whole entire life. dammit! you have no idea how torturous it is to sit through 50 minutes of mrs yau droning on and on about database and many-to-one relationships and primary keys. there is not one period that i don't fall asleep halfway through. it's bad enough that my comp sci class is right after my lunch but i have to get a teacher who can get quite repetitive at times. why did i ever take comp sci in the first place??
my baby's laptop is now installed with a 30 days free trail version of actmon. what is actmon you ask. it's a bloody lovely program that remembers and record down every single keystrokes that you have typed. and this includes your login name and password to any site, your chat log with anyone on icq or msn, every single websites you visited and even every single program that you opened in microsoft. useful eh?? being the nice people we are, we already have a first victim. he's our poor unsuspecting friend k**** (name withheld for privacy). muahahahaha.... but i don't think i would want to use his password to access his friendster for no apparent reason so no worries if you're reading this ok?? -evil grins
got a sudden urge to shop!!! hear that, beckie? you're needed!! ^^
sharon seems kinda sad today. since she's not saying anything, i'm not goin to ask her. wouldn't like people prying if i was sad. so hope you will be better soon okie?? -huggles
# posted by kiki @ 3:31 PM
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| Tuesday, August 17 |
aarrrgghhh.... my economics test was so badly done! not happy about it. gonna be in a foul mood the whole day. or maybe i'm just pms-ing.
we are goin to have another eng oral presentation soon. i thought the argumentative oral was the last oral for the year. still considering what we are planning to do, but i have a feeling it's either goin to go really smoothly or go really badly. just imagine. acting out 3 persons from the year 15xx and 1 indian girl from the year 2003. we are goin to have serious communication problems. but it should be funny with wyn and balqis this time around.
everyone is sending in their applications to universities and what am i doin? still lazing around. i seriously need to apply soon. i can't be this lazy forever. however, i'm still considering whether i wanna go to UNSW. don't really feel like moving... but sometimes you have to sacrifice some things in life. it's not like i won't be able to adapt there.
# posted by kiki @ 3:45 PM
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| Monday, August 16 |
feel so tired and wasted. i don't even know what i wanna do anymore. i feel myself withering away slowly. what's the point of all these? why can't i be happy? i never fail to unearth something wrong in my life. then i start nitpicking about it, droning on and on to myself that i want something more than this. why can't i be satisfied with what i have now? can somebody please whack me on the head to wake me up to reality? i would really appreciate it. -sighs
# posted by kiki @ 10:42 PM
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| Saturday, August 14 |
mr nice asian chef said that he wouldn't be here the week after the next cuz he'll be on leave. why? cuz his girlfriend is coming over from sydney. but that's not the main point. the main point is..... he said that he is considering proposing to his girlfriend!!! aaahhh~ so sweet..... hope that all goes well for him no matter what he decides to do.
addicted to chips!! can't get enough of them. i eat them for lunch, as snack, after dinner, basically i have a non-stop craving for them. especially adore the arnott's thins chicken flavour chips. mmmm.... yummy~ hail the inventor of chips!! i salute you!
# posted by kiki @ 9:57 PM
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kept mistaking today for sunday. maybe cuz it has been a long time since i had a long weekend. australia is seriously lacking in public holidays. haven't had more than 10 public holidays since i arrived. speaking of public holidays, bryan suggested that all malaysians should skip school on august 31st (it's a tues) to celebrate our national day and to show our patriotism. not a bad idea, eh? anyone interested? ^^
watching 'journey to the west' all over again. nothing better to do around here anyway. no more clubbing for me. at least until after the exams finish. and if i did go, my baby has to come along. no fun without him. then maybe sam would not dare to strip my top off to show my bikini if my baby was there. yes, you're mean!!! bet balqis would agree with me too.
# posted by kiki @ 3:35 PM
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chicane was packed last night. so many people from taylors were there. i even saw norman and adrian. left around 2am. too tired and was in no mood to dance anymore. my baby tried to get in around 1++ but was refused entry cuz inside was full. i'm so touched that he actually went. he hates clubbing yet he went to see me. *sighs contently* i love him so much for all the things he has done for me. just wanna hug him and never let go. trying to keep this relationship strong and intact is tough with all the obstacles we face everyday but it's things like this that makes it all worthwhile.
went to the idp exhibition thing. nothing much there. basically telling me the things that i already knew. bumped into adik, bry and john on the tram. thank god. if it wasn't for adik, we wouldn't know where to get off.
second time this week that i went for steamboat. now my hair stinks. ><
saw keipin got "rape" by mario and james. seriously looked like a real rape happening right in front of my eyes with james on top and mario grabbing keipin's hand. not to mention the fact that keipin screams like a girl. should one day record it using john's viewcam for entertainment purpose. -grins evilly
# posted by kiki @ 12:11 AM
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| Thursday, August 12 |
so i guess it's chicane tonight... wyn is such a persistant promoter. if she didn't look cute when she pouts whenever we refuse to buy the tickets, i would have strangled her a long time ago. and i'm not speaking for myself when i say i wanna strangle her. small alan was telling sandy off for bringing wyn back into his room after the hard time he went through to lure her out. but it's a good thing in a way, the more the merrier. too bad my baby isn't goin. -pouts- i wish he was goin to be there with me. guess that's one person that wyn couldn't convince to go. >_<
my dear mommy beckie is having serious bowel problems to the point where it's actually funny. i mean, judging from the looks of it, she's either constipated or having diarhea. you really should do something about it you know?? take care of your bowel ar!!
# posted by kiki @ 3:45 PM
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| Wednesday, August 11 |
as usual, i'm in the comp lab waiting for will to finish his line 9. bored out of my mind. come to think of it, i should be using this time more wisely i.e. study. exam's in 4 weeks, time-table came out today. maths a is on the second day. maybe it's a blessing in disguise. at least i can get it over with and concentrate on the rest. i really should seriously consider goin to maths tutorial.
still in dilemma. chicane. do i? or don't i? aarrgghh... i hate it when i can't make up my mind.
20 more days to go. blink 182 here i come!!! -grins madly
# posted by kiki @ 2:56 PM
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| Tuesday, August 10 |
comp sci assignment for today was tough. my code seem fine and all but i couldn't get the tax part to work. all the taxes i counted came to a grand total of zero, nil, zilch, nada or whatever you wanna call it. which screw up my net wage part cuz i couldn't get the gross pay to subtract the tax. hhmppff... but james couldn't get his to work too so we came to a conclusion that we sabahans obviously don't need to pay any tax. would i make a terrible politician or what? -grins
still thinking about what i wanna put under my three choices (or is it five?) when applying to uni. psychology is definately one of them but i'm still clueless about the rest. the choices that i have thought up are:
1. law (daddy dearest would love it if i choosed this)
2. criminology (watched too much CSI)
3. international trade (just pop up in my mind)
kinda interested in majoring in psychology and minoring in one of the above three. but no idea if these kinda courses are available. i was seriously contemplating taking psychology together with international trade and was talking to eric about it during econs today. his answer? "you should stick to screwing up people's mind" =_=
# posted by kiki @ 7:31 PM
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~ from wyn's blog ~
chicane again this thursday. full moon bikini party, they're raising the temperature inside the club to thirty degrees and all.
i wanna go!! why? why does my baby dislike clubbing? if he did like it, i could bring him along. but now i can already imagine it...
me: i'm goin clubbing with my friends.
him: sure. have fun with your friends. (turns his back on me and start sulking)
>.< i know he doesn't like to be left alone. he kinda gave up his friends for me so i guess it would be mean of me to do that. i mean, i wouldn't like it either. but... *sighs* let's just see how it goes.
# posted by kiki @ 3:32 PM
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| Monday, August 9 |
keipin's mind come up with things normal people would not think of. according to him, apparently all you need to do is add the word -neh at the end of your sentence to sound like you're speaking japanese. so instead of "puk kai" you say "puk kai neh" which incidently is our new favourite word to swear at people with.
john was surprised that i wrote a testi for him. @_@ what??? what's so surprising about that??
no school this friday due to some uni or career thingy. not to sure what exactly is goin on, just very sure that i don't have to go to school. ^^v
# posted by kiki @ 10:35 PM
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| Sunday, August 8 |
called my mom last night. she said she booked my ticket back home for the 15th of december. apparently, results and offers from monash are coming out on the 13th.
had a bad week last week. still not exactly the happiest person in the world right now. >.< feel like goin shopping to release all my woes. that's what i always do but for some reason, i seem hesistant this time around. i don't think shopping can help this time. *sighs*
will was telling me something that day that i found really sweet and touching. i was wondering why i never heard about it before. ignorant, you might say. you see, there's this 18 year old hong kong guy who has been with his girlfriend since they were like 13. one day he decided to start blogging. his reason? so that one year later, that blog would be his engagement present to his girlfriend. everyday he blogged about what they did, what he thought of life and anything that he felt inside. it was so well-written and it become so popular that his blog has gotten over 140000 hits. when that one year arrived, not only did he proposed but his blog was publish into a book. so many people wanted to know who he was that he had to stop blogging for a period of time. now he's 20 and they are married and he's still blogging albeit lesser than before.
all this sounds like what we only get to see in the movies... -sighs
# posted by kiki @ 11:08 AM
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| Friday, August 6 |
apocalypse should arrive and let today be the extinction of humankind as we know it. i know... i sound bitter, cynical and spiteful but that is exactly how i feel today. wait for the day to end, maybe then i will blog about happy things like flowers, butterflies and all things pink. but now, i just feel like cussing anyone i see. nothing is goin right for me today. bloody hell...
gotta log off. the bitch is coming...
# posted by kiki @ 1:05 PM
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| Thursday, August 5 |
today felt like a week 1 wednesday, no comp sci and econs classes. such a relaxing day. one more day and it's the weekend! can't wait. i'm always waiting and waiting for the weekend to arrive. school can be so tiring sometimes. 2 assignments next week... *sighs* gotta start to hit the books soon.
kept bumping into clifford and bobo in the lift today. clifford was talking crap everytime i saw him. kept goin "i'm goin to call my dad! see? the lift is not shutting cuz they heard that i'm goin to call my dad!" and "369, three hundred and sixty nine, 'san liu jiu', 369!!"
kenny phoned just now, asking me why i wrote in his testi that he likes taking pics of himself. haha~ cuz it's true mar!!! his exact words: "why you write that i like to take picture of myself? later people think i'm 'siao' o..." hahaha...
beckie's goin up to mt buller tomorrow. i wanna go too! -whines
# posted by kiki @ 8:17 PM
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| Tuesday, August 3 |
slept through dinner again. went to hungry jack's for dinner. yum~ haven't had fast food for ages after promising myself to lose weight by cutting down on junk food. unfortunately it was raining cats and dogs. bler~ so cold and wet now. on the way back, will kept goin "there's no rain, there's no rain, there's no rain. this is not rain raining down on me". erm... self-denial doesn't work when it's REALLY raining, my dear.
wyn, as long as you guys still have each other, everything will be alright. you don't have care about what others think. hope you have a great time with her this weekend~
# posted by kiki @ 10:26 PM
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maths test went by quite smoothly, not as bad as i expected. but best to just wait for the results before i come to a conclusion about my supposedly improving maths skills. amber was such a sweetheart during maths test today. she finished hers early so she was helping me check my answers and before time was up, she went "psst psst". i was confused why would she called me, definately not to ask for my answers considering my maths skills compared to hers is like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis far apart. then she pointed to her answer and pointed to mine while shaking her head. it then dawned on me that she was giving me the correct answer! ^_^ thanks so much~
fell asleep in econs. when i woke up, tobey and divya was asking me "had a nice dream??" hmm... wonder what they mean...
there's this bloody bitch of a teacher who always tries to find mistakes in whatever will is doin. she totally looks down on will's command of english just cuz he's a hongkie. how racist can she get?? seriously, this school sucks.
# posted by kiki @ 3:26 PM
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| Monday, August 2 |
done with comp science test. wasn't as hard as i expected. but still... they only gave us one measly line to write what the expected output was. bloody stingy taylors college trying to save on paper...
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nothing much to blog about today. maths test tomorrow... >_<
# posted by kiki @ 5:19 PM
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